Diaries of the Nashville school shooter Audrey Halewho fatally shot three 9-year-old children and three adults at the private Christian primary school The Covenant School before being shot dead by police in March 2023, have leaked: RadarOnline.com has learned.
The Tennessee Star reportedly obtained four dozen pages of Hale's writings from a source familiar with the investigation. The papers were reportedly found in Hale's car, which was outside the school before the shooting.
The documents are currently the subject of a lengthy legal battle. News media and Tennessee State Sen. Todd Gardenhire have urged their immediate release, while police say investigations must be completed first. The Covenant School and the families of Hale's victims have also fought the release of the magazines.
Hale reportedly identified as a transgender man and went by the name Aiden, and the newly released diary pages, written just 16 days before the deadliest mass shooting in Tennessee history, contained in-depth discussions about gender and sexual identity.
“My penis exists in my head. I swear to God I'm a man,” Hale reportedly wrote in an article, going on to describe how he fantasized about having sex with women as a man by creating scenes involving hugs.
'I can pretend to be them [and] do the things boys do [and] experience my boy self as Tony,” Hale is reported to have said, explaining that Tony is a “stuffed boy doll…like the boy I am in another form…God, I'm such a pervert.” I waste too much time in my life. fantasies.”
Hale also reportedly wrote that being raised as a girl was “torture” and he feared “being called a dyke or an asshole in high school” before learning about gender identity and transitioning in college.
“I have finally found the answer: that changing gender is possible,” the diary said, describing how Hale's mother was against the idea of transitioning.
“What she believes, how she grew up conservative and that LGBTQ – especially transgender – was an enigma, almost non-existent,” Hale reportedly wrote. “I hate parental views; how my mother sees me as a daughter – and she couldn't bear to lose that daughter because a son would mean the death of Audrey.”
In addition to anger over Hale's parents and their conservative Christian upbringing, the magazines reportedly express frustration over the fact that puberty blockers were not available when Hale was a child.
“I would kill to have those resources; 2007 marked the birth of puberty blockers and a new discovery for treating non-conforming transgender children,” Hale wrote. “I was in sixth grade, puberty had already hit me.”
Hale went on to say, “So now in America it makes someone a criminal if they have a gun, or are transgender, or non-binary… God, I hate those dirty politicians.”
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The daily email reports that several pages of notes Hale wrote prior to the shooting had already been leaked last November.
“'Today is the day. The day has finally arrived. I can't believe the time has come. I don't know how I got this far, but here I am. I've been a little nervous, but also excited, excited the past two weeks,” Hale wrote on the day of the attack. “I'm ready…I hope my victims aren't.”
“God let my wrath take over my fear. It could last up to ten minutes. It could be three to seven. It's going fast. I hope I have a high body count. Ready to die.”
